I stand alone

I stand alone

God you have shown me that

I stand alone

In tears and solace

I stand alone

In understanding and comfort

I stand alone

In advice and support

I stand alone

In ecstasy and lust

I stand alone

My strength is in me

I am my strength

My pride is great

I will try to learn my place

I cannot force others to comfort me

They cannot comfort me as I would like

They cannot please me as I would desire

I cannot trust them as they fail me constantly

But I should be kind

I should be courteous always

My fire scares them

The acrid tongue gets their guard up

I try to understand my interactions

I begin to understand people’s reaction to me is the backlash of my actions.

Over compensating to under compensate is too primitive a strategy

Pulling back and being distant until I can manage is too simple a coping mechanism

The world still turns while I decide

And until I do decide to end this life

I must adapt to its complexities

Or at least play the game