I feel I could break

I feel like I could break into

tiny little pieces or relieved of the pressures to failures

still here when you return

loving and kissing children of others

I feel like I would shatter

into smithereens to deal with

decisions and fear of being

punished and defending

life urge to crumble is strong

flight away from my

self imposed duties and

responsibilities

imposed by me on me

talking to you holding your child

imposed by me on me

smoking a joint being friendly to your friends present and

engaging

imposed on me by me taking

action without recognition

monetary reward or elevation

of position by my own

cognisance with no supervision

imposed on me by me

facing the daunting world of

being questioned for my actions

and justifying my decision

feels like justifying my life