Mod - alert

I went to library on Saturday, from 12 – 5 I studied.  I went again on Sunday, from 12 – 5  on Modalert. Even with that it was a struggle to sit down and focus. I could feel the tiredness building up. The urge to get, to put it down, sometimes I even felt drowsy.

So there I was looking forward to psyching myself up for next weekend. Then a phone call, weirdly there were phone calls on Saturday too. It seemed like everyone knew I was trying to get my act together and decided to sabotage me. Or it could be that I normally get phone calls at that time of the day and I was never near my phone or had any interest in looking at it.

Studying makes phone calls very interesting. Anyway I was thinking, psyching myself up. Mentally rationing the modalert , when I get a call from R asking me to help paint her place this weekend. Of course I am going to but what are the odds? Always it seems when I am trying something comes up. When I am not trying nothing, nada, zilch!

It doesn’t matter. I am getting more modalert somehow I am making up the hours. 10 hour study! In  two days, in a week, in a month even is unheard off.

The trick is getting up and sitting in the library. Where else can you go once your there? To get a good spot you have to get there early. Once your there, you have to sit.

I was dreading doing the 9 to 5. I was quivering just doing the 12-5. I could feel myself in tumult. LOL

There is a way.

I am meant to see E at on Friday. Don’t know why that makes me anxious. It does though. My career, makes me anxious, talking about it does. Hopefully she can help.