exam is coming fast!

I didn’t do much work (studying) this weekend. I am not mad at myself, for one it doesn’t help.

I can’t deny I am running out of time.

On the plus side I am moving from a tree stand to a toe stand (at least on my left side) and my fix firm pose is coming along nicely. Standing head to knee and standing bow pose is looking good especially on my left leg.

But the muscle on the back of my thigh is screaming!

I have to address my sister and mother issue. Honestly I am just filled with rage, cool intense rage.

But they are distractions I don’t need.

Work- French-Yoga-home, in between that I have to prepare for French class in my lunch and do some financial accounting before French class.

Seven more day to my exam. If only I could just study at home more during the weekend, after work. It is beyond me how I can motivate myself to do it. When I push too much I give up. When I give myself space I barely do enough.

Y didn’t get me the cat maybe that was for the best. He’s an idiotJ .  I can’t wait for the Modafinil, it might come too late. It might not even work. I might just get distracted and focus on YouTube or something stupid. At this point I have to do something.

The plan is (hope this one sticks), wake up at 5 get ready like I am going to work, get dressed and go down stairs. I have to make it down stairs!!!!!! And stay there! I really can do this. I have a first class brain. I just have to focus it. Jesus!

I don’t need music, TV. I just need to stay in the sitting room with the doors closed for a total of 8 hours a day. If I can do this and not fall asleep or go on the internet I will blast those papers.

I can do this!

I wonder where the damn Modafinil is!

23/11 Wednesday is P1, 24/11 Thursday is F1

It’s ok to freak out. It not ok to give in or give up.