Invisible slime

Apparently I was a creep
Of course I was a creep
I didn’t know what hit me
Coming out of a relationship the way I did, you would be a creep too rest assured

Yes I know that is no defence
I was younger
I was lost
Finally I fitted in somewhere

Yes laugh, you did before
My usual line
I want to be a part of something
I needed to be part of something

Was it on me like body odour?
Was there a film of invisible slime?
Did my desperation have a pungent repellent smell?

I have lost the anger of my younger days
My self hate and loathing
Almost gone

Now I am in ice
I am ice
Surrounded
Encompassed

Nothing you do can hurt me, hunt me
Nothing can touch me
Except when it does
When it did

Then I remember
Then I am as I was
Me